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Thanksgiving and Important Places

Being an eager dreamer that is desperately wanting to grow my blog, I am so disappointed that I don’t have the mind or energy to even think about writing or making something food related for my readers for Thanksgiving, but, I do want to share something with you.

To confess, I’ve been frustrated for a few years now, feeling stuck in a place that I don’t want to be; feeling like a little thing of hay in a needle stack that stabs me everywhere; the needle stack of Providence, Rhode Island.

Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate this creative capitol, but, I always feel something is missing.

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Where fragile meets the concrete

Usually I go home and I’m happy to see my family, but then I’m always ready to go back to Kevin in Providence. This past weekend I visited my family in Saratoga, and of course I missed Kevin, but I was afraid, because, for some reason, I felt like I didn’t want to leave this time; you know how terrible that sounds when you say you don’t want to go back to the place your love is? This feeling combined with being sick made me feel like my world was crumbling.


Even though I live somewhere I don’t like very much, I don’t want to leave without Kevin, so why can’t I just deal with it for at least another year? Why can’t I just be happy to have a roof over my head? Even though he works 80 hours a week as a chef, why can’t I just continue using the time alone to work on myself?

It’s so embarrassing to say, but I am always blaming my negative experiences in Providence for why I can’t just live; for my inability to trust working somewhere that I will like; for my failure of getting out. What’s wrong with me? Why do I feel like I can’t carry on, even with my suffering, like everyone else?

While I was home, my Mom had me watch a video that my brother-in-law showed her recently called The Important Places. It turned out to be everything I needed to see.

The Adirondacks are my important place. I lived in those mountains for about 11 years. They are rich with Mother nature’s gifts, and I took those for granted growing up; the rivers and lakes that cooled me, the mountains that protected me, the sky that guided me. I wanted to run to my important place after watching this video.

 

That night, I tried to sleep with a slight fever, and I started crying with discomfort, but it was longing that killed me more. All I could do was whisper “I miss you”.

After my tears slowed, the pain finally started to surface some light that I was needing to see. I realized something; yes, I miss this place, but, do my tears have to be of sorrow? Why cry as though I lost something? Why fear that I will not have time to visit, when that important place is always with me? I just have to open the doors in my mind, and let the beauty of the Adirondacks in.

I realized that I might be from a different place, but that fact is what should keep me alive, not broken.

Knowing that my family is going to be in mountains for Thanksgiving made it tempting to go, but, I can’t help but also feel that where I am is an important place when a certain someone is with me, so I decided to choose that one.

IMG_2032Rhode Island might not be where we stay forever, but moving forward, I am promising myself to stay content with where I am, and remember where I’m from; I promise to reach for the sky, but never let go of my roots.

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I may be far from one very important place this holiday, but it’s never far from me <3

 

 

 

 

Gluten Free · Healthy · Raw · Recipe · Supertreat · Vegan

Raw Apple Nut Cake Bites

Raw Apple Nut Cake Bites for the one who really appreciates straight forward apple flavor. I always try to go with my intuition when I’m making healthy snacks, but, sometimes I get worried that it’s too sweet, or not nutrition-smart, or, something. With this treat, I tried to have a variety of sweet things and fibery things and fatty things.

I really wanted the apple to stand out, so I put an entire apple in this batch of holistic yumminess. If you have applesauce, that would work as well. I didn’t intend on adding oat flour, but after I added the apple, the mixture became way too wet, so some dryness was needed.

Confession, for the nutty sauce, I wanted to use only peanut butter, but I didn’t have enough, so I added almond butter; I say do whatever you like. Hell, maybe sub out cashew butter, or do three different nut butters, or, yeah, you get it.

I used a big toothpick thing to help dip the apple cake balls into the nutty sauce mixture, but, feel free to keep them in and have “cake pops”.


 

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Raw Apple Nut Cake Bites

These cake bites are loaded with crunchy nuts and apple flavor, along with other holistic ingredients. They are pretty dense, so even just one bite might leave you feeling satisfied. 

Course Snack
Cuisine Healthy
Prep Time 15 minutes
Cook Time 20 minutes
Total Time 35 minutes
Servings 14 bites

Ingredients

Raw Apple Nut Cake

  • 1 cup oats
  • 1/4 cup pecans
  • 1/4 cup buckwheat
  • 12 dates
  • 2 tbsp coconut oil
  • 1 tbsp maple syrup
  • 1 tsp cinnamon
  • 1/2 tsp salt
  • 1 apple shredded
  • 1/2 cup oat flour

Peanut Butter Dipping Sauce

  • 1/2 cup peanut butter
  • 1/2 cup almond butter
  • 3 tbsp coconut oil

Instructions

  1. For the cake bites, blend everything (EXCEPT FOR THE SHREDDED APPLE AND OAT FLOUR) together in a food processor, put into a bowl, and then add the shredded apple and oat flour and mix with a spoon. 

  2. Roll the raw apple cake mixture into  1' bite-sized balls, place on a plate, and chill in the fridge for ten minutes. 

  3. While the bites are chilling, make a double boiler, and melt the nut butters and coconut oil together; be sure not to cook for too long, or the mixture won't be liquidy enough. 

  4. Take the cake bites out, and using a skewer or toothpick, start dipping the bites into the dipping sauce, and place them on a plate with parchment paper.

  5. Allow the bites to cool for about twenty minutes until the nut butter sauce hardens, and then enjoy. 

Gluten Free · Healthy · Mac n' Cheese · Recipe · Vegan

Mac n’ Cheese with Roasted Carrots and Broccoli

Hello loves,

I made a vegan, gluten free mac n’ cheese about a week ago, and I’ve been meaning to post the recipe for it. BUT, for the visual learner, I thought I’d share with you the video I made; it’s been fun experimenting.

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Chocolate · Gluten Free · Healthy · Raw · Recipe · Vegan

Omega Dark Chocolate Peanut Butter Cups

I made these Omega Dark Chocolate Peanut Butter Cups last night when I was having a serious chocolate craving attack, and I’m happy I did, and now I’m happy to share the recipe with you.

So, what is so “omega” about this wonderful treat? It’s all in the crust.

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Detox · Drink · Healthy · Juice · Raw · Recipe

Two Detox Agents You Should Be Adding to Your Juices

This detox agent post is inspired by a simple juice I made the day after I ate an entire sleeve of Halloween Oreos. I know that putting crap in your body is damaging, even if you chase it with something healthy, so, I don’t encourage following the pattern that I am currently stuck in. Hey, we aren’t perfect. We all have our strengths and weaknesses.

By the way, the featured photo is courtesy of Remedies For Me.

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Chocolate · Gluten Free · Healthy · Raw · Recipe · Supertreat

Hemp Almond Joy Protein Bites

This Hemp Almond Joy Protein Bites recipe is one of the first recipes I developed. From what I remember, it could use a little more sweetness, so maybe double the honey.

I used hemp protein powder in this recipe, but feel free to use any protein powder that benefits you.

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Hemp Almond Joy Protein Bites

This supertreat is loaded with nutrient-dense ingredients that are sure to keep you full, and give you long-lasting energy. 

Course Snack
Cuisine Supertreat
Prep Time 10 minutes
Total Time 10 minutes
Servings 9 bites

Ingredients

  • 1 cup whole oats
  • 1/4 cup buckwheat kernels
  • 1 tbsp chia seed
  • 1 tbsp flax seed
  • 2 tbsp coconut oil
  • 4 tbsp mini chocolate chips divided in 2
  • 2 tbsp hemp protein powder
  • 1/4 cup cocoa powder
  • 1/2 cup shredded coconut
  • 1/4 cup almond meal
  • 1/2 tbsp cocoa nibs
  • 2 tsp coconut extract
  • 2 tbsp honey
  • 1/4 cup almond milk

Instructions

  1. Put oats, buckwheat, chia seed, and flax seed in a food processor (the mixture in the end will resemble sand). Place the ground mixture into a medium sized bowl.

  2. Using a double boiler, melt the coconut oil and and only 2 tbsp of the mini chocolate chips. 

  3. When the coconut oil and chocolate chips are completely melted, add them to the dry ingredients. Then add all other ingredients (including the 2 tbsp of chips), and mix by hand or by mixer, until everything is blended together.

  4. Chill for about 10 minutes. In the meantime, grab a sheet pan, plate, or anything that you can place the protein bites on. 

  5. Roll the almond joy protein mixture into 1-inch, bite-sized balls.

  6. *Optional, roll the bites in shredded coconut for added texture and sweetness.